Welcome to Behavioral Health Today, a podcast by Triad, where we tackle trending topics in behavioral and mental health. The Behavioral Health Today podcast shares unique and relevant topics occurring within our world and communities with a mental health professional perspective.
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Each episode explores a taboo question or cultural blind spot with an expert who is themselves, a paradox - Like the atheist doctor who studied near death experiences for 50 years (ep 224) Or the deeply religious man studied by NASA who sees UFOs regularly (ep 261). The mission is to inspire the kind of curiosity that looks for & celebrates nuance, because we all deserve a more curious future. So tune in each week (new episodes every Monday) to question things like American individualism (ep ...
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Anniversary Special: Grandiose vs. Vulnerable Narcissism with Keith Campbell, PhD – Episode 372
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37:55In celebration of our fifth anniversary, we’re re-releasing one of our favorite episodes from the past year. In this episode, we dive into the intricate world of narcissism, examining how both grandiose and vulnerable traits influence self-esteem, relationships, and the impact of social media on these behaviors. Dr. Graham Taylor is joined by Dr. K…
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Ep. 289 The REAL Reason You’re Unhappy! Ancient Brains & Modern Emotions [REMASTERED]
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36:31Dr. Loretta Breuning was unconvinced by prevailing theories on human motivation & after researching the animal origins of our brain chemicals, wrote the book Habits of a Happy Brain. Here she shares why we find ourselves saying, “I shouldn’t be so unhappy! I have everything I need” or doing late-night shopping at the expense of your savings account…
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BHT Bytes – Between the Headline & the Heart: How We Respond to the News – Episode 371
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20:11The news shapes our feelings more than our opinions—don’t let it choose your mood. In this episode of BHT Bytes, hosts Peter Fenger and Sharlee Dixon unpack something we all wrestle with: our relationship with the news. In a world flooded with headlines designed to spark outrage and steal our focus, it’s easy to feel emotionally hijacked without ev…
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Nichol R Bradford is the Chairman & co-founder of The Transformative Tech Lab, where she specializes as a futurist focusing on human-centered AI adoption. We not only discussed theoretical scenarios of human betterment due to AI, but practical AI tools that are available now that could make the internet safer & more supportive for your kids as well…
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When Words Don’t Work: Art, Access, & the Fight Against Stigma with Manami Yamamoto, LMFT – Episode 370
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32:14Healing doesn’t start with a diagnosis—it starts with feeling safe enough to be seen. In this episode, Sharlee Dixon sits down with Manami Yamamoto, MA, LMFT, a licensed Marriage and Family Therapist and the Founder of Blue Humming Therapy—a nonprofit organization dedicated to promoting holistic mental health within diverse communities. With a comp…
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Ep. 287 If Aliens are Real, Why Does No One Care?
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51:12Michael Glawson, PhD, is a philosopher of science and technology with a background in theology. He’s also the host of the podcast Anomalous Review & the UAP Studies Podcast. In this video, we cover the public’s love affair with cryptids, why new information is unlikely to smash our world view, ancient aliens, data vs entertainment & how the Scienti…
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Clinicians Series: Practicing Curiosity Without Judgment – The Gentle Power Behind Growth with Jon Steele, LMFT – Episode 369
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44:36Curiosity calms what judgment clenches. In this episode of the Clinicians Series, Dr. Graham Taylor speaks with Jon Steele, LMFT—a licensed marriage and family therapist who specializes in working with high performers, including athletes and professionals navigating intense pressure. Drawing from his own experience as a former collegiate athlete, J…
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Ep. 286 What is Medically Assisted Sex? [REMASTERED]
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29:25Trish St John is the founder of Sensual Solutions in Vancouver, Canada, an intimate care service for adults with disabilities. With everyone trying to be more sex-positive, we ask the question, why then is it so uncomfortable to think about someone with a spinal cord injury having sex? In this episode, she shares how she went from HR executive to s…
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Clinicians Series: Daoism & Ancient Wisdom – Reproductive Health, Vitality & Balance with Michelle Oravitz – Episode 368
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36:43Nature holds the key to balance—when we align with it, vitality follows. In this episode, Dr. Graham Taylor sits down with Michelle Oravitz, founder of The Wholesome Lotus. Michelle began her career as an architect but found her true calling in alternative medicine after acupuncture transformed her health and well-being. Inspired by this personal s…
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Ep. 285 Is Heart Coherence a Chaos Cure-All? Health, Behavior & Intuition
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47:11Rollin McCraty, PhD is Psychophysiologist & Director of Research at the HeartMath Institute where his primary areas of focus are the mechanisms by which emotions influence cognitive processes, behavior, health, & global interconnectivity between people & Earth’s energetic systems. His research has appeared in journals including the American Journal…
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Aging, Mood & Memory: The Powerful Role of Neuropeptides with Dr. Jennifer Garrison – Episode 367
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35:05Your brain isn’t just wired—it’s mapped biochemically, and those signals may hold the key to longevity. In this episode, Dr. Graham Taylor sits down with Dr. Jennifer Garrison, a leading researcher at the Buck Institute for Research on Aging and an adjunct assistant professor of gerontology. Dr. Garrison’s groundbreaking work focuses on neuropeptid…
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Ep. 284 Can You Get Fit on Fast Food?! Supersized to Shredded
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45:38Matt Lane is a certified personal trainer, behavioral change specialist and practicing registered nurse who gained 50lbs ON PURPOSE, so he could experiment on himself to see IF it was possible to lose weight by only eating fast food for 60 days. In this episode, you’ll hear the emotional impact of his weight gain, the fallacy of portion control, fo…
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BHT Bytes – The Rise of Charter Schools: Who Wins and Who Loses? – Episode 366
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25:52Innovation or Inequality? Charter schools bring fresh ideas—but at what cost to public education? In this episode of BHT Bytes, hosts Sharlee Dixon and Peter Fenger dive into a topic that impacts millions of families: the ongoing debate between public and charter schools. As charter schools rise in popularity, they spark critical questions about fu…
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Ep. 283 Is Narcissism on the Rise? Internet, Influencers & the Dark Triad
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48:39Dr. Stephanie Sarkis is a psychotherapist with over 20 years of experience specializing in ADHD, anxiety, & narcissistic abuse. She’s a contributor to Forbes & Psychology Today & the Author of Healing from Toxic Relationships: 10 Essential Steps to Recover from Gaslighting, Narcissism, and Emotional Abuse. In this episode, you’ll hear the reason th…
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Beyond Betrayal: Male Infidelity, Vulnerability & The Courage to Heal with Dr. Jeanne Michele– Episode 365
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40:58Infidelity isn’t the end—it’s a reckoning. True healing begins when blame gives way to understanding. In this episode, Dr. Graham Taylor sits down with Dr. Jeanne Michele, a trailblazer in personal development with over two decades of experience in teaching, modern philosophy, and coaching. Dr. Michele specializes in helping individuals, couples, a…
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Ep. 282 Are Technology, Religion & UFOs Connected? [REMASTERED]
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34:05Dr. Diana Walsh Pasulka is a Professor of religious history at the University of North Carolina Wilmington. Her research focuses on religion and technology, but it was her research about purgatory specifically that lead her to UFO culture, a journey she documents in her book, American Cosmic. Here she helps us understand the connection between tech…
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From Ending to Evolution: Transforming Divorce into Growth with Meghan Freed – Episode 364
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38:58Divorce isn’t just an ending—it’s an opportunity to redefine your future with clarity and strength. In this episode, Dr. Graham Taylor sits down with Meghan Freed, Managing Co-Partner of Freed Marcroft, a Connecticut law firm dedicated exclusively to divorce and family law. A nationally recognized thought leader in relationship dynamics and divorce…
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Ep. 281 Family Influencers: Are Kids Content?
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41:14The world of family influencers is one we all know, but what are the impacts of on the children of these influencers when they come of age? Erin Quinn Kong is a longtime magazine editor, having worked at Allure & UsWeekly. Her most current endeavor led her to merging real influencer allegations into a fictional novel called Hate Follow about a teen…
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BHT Bytes: From Connection to Crisis – How Social Media Shapes Youth Mental Health – Episode 363
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24:43Social media connects us, but at what cost? Depression, anxiety, and isolation are on the rise—especially for kids. In this episode of BHT Bytes, hosts Sharlee Dixon and Dr. Graham Taylor explore the profound impact of social media and technology on mental health, particularly among young people. With rising rates of depression, anxiety, and isolat…
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Ep. 280 Is Hawaii Haunted? History, Pele & Pizza [REMASTERED]
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33:57Lopaka Kapanui is a native Hawaiian who was adopted by a non-Hawaiian family & raised Catholic. When he was 7, he died during a medical procedure & his near-death experience left him with some unusual gifts & an open door to connecting back to his culture. He now celebrates over 25 years of owning & operating Hawaii’s only locally-owned ghost tour …
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Clinicians Series: Unlocking Anger & Shame—From Suppression to Strength with Bronwyn Schweigerdt, LMFT – Episode 362
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40:11Your emotions aren’t the enemy—shame distorts, anger signals, and healing begins when you listen. In this episode, Dr. Graham Taylor speaks with Bronwyn Schweigerdt, LMFT, a licensed psychotherapist, public speaker, author, and host of Angry at the Right Things. Known for her evocative therapeutic approach, Bronwyn specializes in helping clients ex…
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Ep. 279 Blurred Boundaries: Deepfake Porn Ethics & Impact
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43:32Sophie Compton & Reuben Hamlyn are the directors of Another Body, a documentary highlighting an engineering student's experience becoming a victim of nonconsensual intimate imagery or what most call deepfake porn. The documentary walks through how a young engineering student became a victim of image based sexual abuse and in this conversation you’l…
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Transition, Truth, & Triumph: A Transgender Journey with Wendy Cole – Episode 361
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47:02The true transformation begins in the mind—own your truth, and everything else will follow. In this episode, Sharlee Dixon welcomes Wendy Cole, a transition mentor dedicated to guiding individuals through major life changes with a focus on self-acceptance and personal growth. After embarking on her own gender transition at the age of 67, Wendy brin…
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Ep. 278 Morbid or Sacred? Let’s Talk about Death (with a Death Doula)
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52:20Dr. Sarah Kerr is the founder of The Centre for Sacred Death Care & has been a practicing death doula since 2012. In this episode, she shares conversational onramps to death conversations (including kids), the difference between death the moment & death the process, how to find death rituals that feel authentic & what a death doula does. If you lik…
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Unpacking Shame: Non-Monogamy, LGBTQ+ Identity, & Religious Trauma with Ann Russo, LCSW – Episode 360
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48:56Healing from religious trauma means separating doctrine from personal truth, allowing space for love, identity, and non-monogamy without judgment. In this episode, Sharlee Dixon welcomes Ann Russo, a licensed therapist and founder of AMR Therapy, which provides mental health care for the LGBTQ+ community, people of color, and those in non-tradition…
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Ep. 277 Divorce Revolution: Living with Your Ex (& his new wife) [REMASTERED]
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30:31Ep. 277 Divorce Revolution: Living with Your Ex (& his new wife) [REMASTERED] Living together while divorced sounds crazy, but it’s the story of Suzanne Vickberg, PhD, an author & psychologist who chose a divorce by design rather than a divorce by default. She shares her thought process & divorce success story to answer the questions, can divorce b…
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Clinicians Series: Somatic Paths to Healing Grief with Amy Pickett-Williams, LCSW – Episode 359
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40:15Love, loss, and healing are deeply interconnected, and somatic practices offer a pathway to transform pain into resilience. In this episode of our Clinicians Series, where we explore the strategies and techniques shaping modern therapy, Dr. Graham Taylor welcomes back Amy Pickett-Williams, LCSW. With over 25 years of experience in grief, trauma, an…
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Ep. 276 Are Aliens Humans from the Future? [REMASTERED]
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58:51Dr. Michael P Masters is a professor of biological anthropology at Montana Tech University. Part of his research draws on anthropology, astronomy, physics & astrobiology to investigate UFO phenomenon, specifically the premise that aliens may be our human descendants, returning from the future to visit & study their own hominin evolutionary past. We…
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BHT Bytes: Navigating Post-Presidential Election with Curiosity & Compassion – Episode 358
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26:36Polarization is not inevitable—it’s a tactic. The real challenge is learning to listen, seek understanding, and embrace the opportunity for growth that comes from different perspectives. In the first episode of BHT Bytes, hosts Dr. Graham Taylor and Sharlee Dixon explore how polarization is often a tactic designed to divide us, and how we can break…
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The Hopeless Generation, Pt. 2: Rebuilding Connection & Resilience in a Disconnected World with Dr. Henry Venter – Episode 357
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41:33Today’s youth face a convergence of challenges: delayed milestones, societal pressures, and a deepening crisis of meaning and purpose. Yet, resilience may hold the key to navigating these turbulent waters. In this episode, Dr. Graham Taylor welcomes back Dr. Henry Venter, a licensed clinical psychologist and professor of psychology with over 25 yea…
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Ep. 275 Is Ambition Anti-Happiness? Reasonable Happiness & Fetishizing Wealth
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47:13Paul Ollinger was one of Facebook’s first 250 employees. At age 42, he walked out with a pocket full of cash in what most would consider an ideal situation, but what he found instead left him wondering what’s next while he explored the relationship between money, happiness, work, and meaning. In this episode, we discuss how wealth changes us, leave…
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Co-Pilots of Progress: Rethinking AI’s Role in Our Future with Ravi Bapna – Episode 356
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45:49From personalized learning tutors to real-time health insights, AI is revolutionizing how we live, work, and connect—not as a dystopian threat, but as a co-pilot for human progress. In this episode, Sharlee Dixonis joined by Ravi Bapna, chair of Business Analytics and Information Systems at the University of Minnesota’s Carlson School of Management…
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Three guests. One fantastic conversation! Dr. Carol Queen from Good Vibes, a sex educator, a woman whose partner has a foot fetish (she doesn’t) & Ramon, a man who has a foot fetish along with his wife and who are the hosts of the Foot Fetish Podcast, join me for an educational (& hilarious) conversation about the most common of fetishes: feet. You…
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Zero Overdose: Turning Awareness Into Action to Save Lives with Dr. Jorge Petit – Episode 355
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30:21Every overdose reversed is an opportunity to save a life—and it all begins with awareness, education, and community action. In this episode, Dr. Graham Taylor is joined by Dr. Jorge Petit, the Strategy and Development Advisor at Zero Overdose, a national non-profit organization committed to preventing overdose deaths. With over 30 years of experien…
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The Strength in Vulnerability: How MELD is Redefining Men’s Mental Health with Owen Marcus & Duncan Rich– Episode 354
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43:04Redefining Masculinity: It's not about standing alone—it's about connecting deeply with ourselves and each other. In this episode, Dr. Graham Taylor is joined by Duncan Rich and Owen Marcus from MELD, a men's wellness organization focused on emotional resilience and mental health. Owen, with over 40 years of experience working with men’s groups and…
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Ep. 273 Autism Up 241% Since the Year 2000: Why & What Now?
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47:06According to the CDC, 1 in 36 children in the US are on the spectrum. Beth Lambert is the founder & Exec Dir of Documenting hope, a non-profit research org that over the last 15 years has collaborated with physicians, parents, scientists, & health organizations to examine the cumulative impact of environmental stressors in order to re-think the way…
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FirstWork’s Approach to Accessible Learning for Special Needs with Patrick Faga – Episode 353
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42:11Immediate feedback, personalized learning, and user-friendly tools—FirstWork is transforming the way children with special learning needs thrive. In this episode, Sharlee Dixon sits down with Patrick Faga, the founder and CEO of FirstWork, a groundbreaking digital application designed to simplify Discrete Trial Training (DTT). With a strong foundat…
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Ep. 272 Breaking Free: Death Threats & Deprogramming Victimhood
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44:57Dima Ghawi grew up in a small Christian community in Amman, Jordan, the daughter of a man with an unpredictable temper & a mother who felt a decent marriage proposal for her daughter would be an opportunity out. In this episode, she shares how her dream suitor turned into a nightmare situation that included death threats from her father, a brave es…
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How to Navigate the Depths of Seasonal Affective Disorder with Dr. Theresa Rose Bajt – Episode 352
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32:32True wellness thrives in the balance of stress, sleep, nutrition, and mindful practices that support the autonomic nervous system. In this episode, Sharlee Dixon sits down with Dr. Theresa Rose Bajt, a licensed psychologist with over 30 years of experience helping individuals navigate anxiety, depression, OCD, and grief. Specializing in the integra…
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Ep. 271 Tripping to Success: Psychedelics and Career Growth?
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46:55Paul F. Austin is the founder of Third Wave, research-based psychedelics education and community platform. In this episode, we explore the intersection of psychedelics, personal transformation, and professional success. You’ll hear macro vs micro dosing, which psychedelics deliver the best professional edge, how nicotine, caffeine and alcohol keep …
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Mindful Minds: Building Brain Resilience Through Lifestyle Medicine with Dr. Sui Wong – Episode 351
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49:50Your brain thrives on balance—sleep, nutrition, movement, and mindfulness. Small changes lead to a life well-lived. In this episode, Sharlee Dixon speaks with Dr. Sui Wong, an award-winning neurologist and neuro-ophthalmologist based in London. Dr. Wong specializes in integrating mindfulness and lifestyle medicine into brain health, blending over 2…
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The Hopeless Generation: Addressing Youth Isolation & Disconnection with Dr. Henry Venter – Episode 350
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40:50Young people today are drowning in hopelessness—disconnected, disillusioned, and abandoning love, dreams, and life itself. It’s time to offer a lifeline, not excuses. In this episode, Dr. Graham Taylor sits down with Dr. Henry Venter, a licensed clinical psychologist and professor of psychology with over 25 years of experience in clinical practice …
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Ep. 270 Accidental Swingers [REMASTERED]
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1:02:37A couple in their 50s happily married for over 20 years shares the hilarious story of how they accidentally became swingers, how it has improved their marriage & their tips for more open, vulnerable communication with your partner. You’ll also hear how they handle disclosing to friends & family, including their sons, her response to her mom who sai…
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Clinicians Series: Raising Great Listeners Through Empathy & Connection with Christine Miles – Episode 349
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36:30Listening isn’t just hearing words—it’s about fostering empathy, connection, and understanding to build stronger relationships. In this episode, Dr. Graham Taylor speaks with Christine Miles, a leading expert in transformative listening. Christine, author of What Is It Costing You Not to Listen?: The Power of Understanding to Connect, Influence, So…
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Ep. 269 Exercise & Cancer: Chemo Bells, Business & Google MD
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53:25Tom Incledon, PhD is the Founder & Chief Scientific Officer of Causenta Cancer Treatment Center. He not only has a number of published researches & serves as a reviewer for peer-reviewed journals, he’s also the guy that the heads of big cancer centers go to for treatment when they have cancer. He’s combined his diverse academic & personalized medic…
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Inside Casey's Clubhouse: Empowering Kids with Social-Emotional Skills with Laura Doerflinger Schneider – Episode 348
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57:05Helping kids thrive with emotional skills for life—Casey’s Clubhouse empowers children through storytelling, creativity, and empathy. In this episode, Sharlee Dixon speaks with Laura Doerflinger Schneider, LMHC, a seasoned mental health therapist with over 31 years of experience supporting children, adolescents, adults, and families. As the founder…
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Forgiveness as Medicine: Healing Through Unconditional Love & the Power of the Right Brain with Dara McKinley – Episode 347
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38:23Forgiveness is a healing journey fueled by unconditional love—learn to quiet the mind, engage the heart, and free yourself from emotional burdens. In this episode, Dr. Graham Taylor speaks with Dara McKinley, a seasoned expert in spirituality and health with over 30 years of experience. Dara's exploration of forgiveness began with a profound person…
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Ep. 268 Science & the Psychic: the Utility of a Sixth Sense
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44:40Stephen Ng Qui Sang is a mechanical engineer who worked for the Ford Motor company & was looking for a way to be more efficient. This was the unlikely launching point down a path that led him to become the interim Executive Dir. Of the Monroe institute, a non-profit mostly famously known for partnering with the US Government to train soldiers for r…
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Habits for Thriving: Unlocking ADHD Strengths in Kids & Teens with Jon Zeitlin – Episode 346
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33:59ADHD isn’t a barrier—it’s a blueprint for success. By building habits, playing to strengths, and managing challenges, kids and teens can thrive in school, relationships, and life. In this episode, Dr. Graham Taylor speaks with Jon Zeitlin. Jon is the co-founder of HabitCoach, the Hallowell Todaro ADHD Center in California, and CoachJon, where he he…
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Ep. 267 Grieving During the Holidays: Sneaky Symptoms & Finding Joy [REMASTERED]
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40:43Dr. Alexys Hillman is a medical doctor specializing in grief advocacy. In this episode, we explore how to make room for grief in moments of joy, what unresolved grief looks like in physical symptoms & how to move through less recognized sources of grief like estrangement & loss of opportunity. This episode originally aired December 12, 2022 If you …
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