Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world.

E86: Tea Party Tangles: When Closeness Feels Like a Trap

In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we pull up a seat at the Mad Tea Party—but the closer the chairs get, the harder it is to breathe. “Tea Party Tangles” explores the push-pull chaos of intimacy when you live with BPD—the craving for closeness tangled with the terror of being consumed, trapped, or betrayed.

We explore how relationships can start to feel like Wonderland puzzles: connection wrapped in confusion, affection laced with fear. One moment, it feels like everything you ever wanted; the next, you’re clawing to escape. This episode dives deep into the emotional contradictions that arise when love feels both like safety and danger.

If you’ve ever wanted to be held but feared disappearing in someone else’s arms, or if you’ve distanced yourself just to feel in control—this episode will feel like someone finally sees through the swirl.