You're not afraid of anything anymore. You're ready to take on any challenge, whatever life throws at you. Having endured the worst, there's very little left out there that can really scare you, but here it is. It's the reminders of what you could be again as soon as you let your guard down, as soon as your friends forget about you, as soon as you lose just a little bit of credit, that slight bit of validation, and go at it truly on your own. It's a comedy variety show hosted by a optimistic trans woman who tries really hard. She works really hard on it. She has that indie spirit. She is the manifestation of your worst nightmares :)